my newest wee beastie

It seems only appropriate to write about this on the eve of Thanksgiving, and although I imagine most everyone who visits this blog already knows…I thought it was time to write about it here as well.  This past September, I received the best possible birthday present I will ever receive…the confirmation that all I was feeling was finally a far bit more than psychosomatic, and, yes, that I was pregnant.  This was followed by a few months of quiet and rest (and eating nothing but toast once again), and the holding of our biggest secret.  And now, at four months, although still easily exhausted by my attempts to keep up with myself, I feel as healthy as ever, and I have had the pleasure of hearing the underwater-oceanic heartbeat of this wee beastie, and have had the first moving images of this tiny creature etched forever into my mind. 

What I never expected is that, for me, my wee one is already here.  Present with me at every moment.  Never again in my life, will I be someone’s entire world in the intimate way that I am now.  So, although I am immersed in the endless to-do’s that come with preparing for such an arrival, I feel far more calm than I ever would have anticipated, because, simply put, my life has already changed.

On a sillier note…in terms of unexpecteds, although I had heard of pregnant women becoming teary-eyed at sad things…I have quite the opposite experience…I find myself all teary-eyed at happy things…thinking nostalgic thoughts while listening to music on my Ipod…watching Oprah give money away to strangers on TV…(not to mention those awful holiday commercials for Folgers and Hallmark).  So, if you happen to catch me on a day when my eyes are filled to the brim, you can know that everything is truly okay.

Comments

[Kellysirishred]

This is just what I get for using google reader and not reading: I thought something was broken when I didn't see any pictures!

I've said it once and I'll say it again: Congratulations!! And now tell me what i can start knitting...

[anatomist]

i am so happy for you. and i cannot wait to meet the wee one!

[DV]

I have to say that I really love your perspective of pregnancy (something I found to be... uncomfortable).

I am delighted for you both and the one to come. Congratulations!